Ever have one (or many) days where there simply are no words to express where you are in life or what you are feeling on a particular day? That scenario has been my lot in life these past few weeks. So much happiness, suffering, loss, new life, rebirth...etc. has been a part of my daily routine and I have really struggled to put it all into words.
I know fully that my lot in life is to serve a risen Savior in any and all ways that I can. Notice I did not say that I accomplish this fete always, but I believe that I am called to continue to strive for just that goal. My absolute understanding of all that I live for eternally is just that..eternal life with my Heavenly Father. However, on this earth, I am to serve Him in and through my daily walk. I know I am rambling here, but stay with me.
In this life, we will all have struggles. This much is a promise. When we love someone, it hurts to see change come and take them away from us. If only we would stop and think, we would ultimately realize that nothing is ever really ours anyway so letting go should be a simple relinquishing. Not that simple. When we love someone, we love them deeply. Family, friends, even just a brother or sister in Christ that has crossed our path. It hurts to let them go. So many times the cliche' of "they are in a better place" is just too much to even listen to. In my mind that is absolute, but in my heart...
These past few months I have taken the time to really pray for those who are struggling with hard things in their lives. Some have lost a parent. Some are losing one. One is losing an amazing wife. Others are trying to understand letting go of their mom. So much suffering but much more grace. I am so moved by the strength God gives just when we need it. What do people do who don't know Him when they are trying to continue to live when someone they cherish has died?
I will continue to pray for miracles because I believe that God loves us enough to let us be a part of them. Not always, but sometimes. I do know that He is in control of every situation and that He is never surprised by circumstances or their outcomes. I am so thankful that He holds our future in the palm of His hand.
It all comes down to this:
2 Corinthians 12:8-12
Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
