In life there are ups and downs.  Every day we are constantly faced with the daunting task of making choices that ultimately can change the course of our lives.  Sometimes we choose wisely and other times our decisions cause us to struggle where we never expected.  Mistakes are made but just the pure definition of that is doing something that we didn't mean to do or hurting someone we didn't want to hurt with our actions.  

As we walk through life, however, there are instances where trust becomes so important in our relationships.  In marriage, in friendship, in medicine, in machinery....I can go on and on, but the point is that we have to rely on others and other things to survive.  It is when those people or things let us down that we begin to understand suffering.  When the chemo starts to lose it's power.  When the battery in our car wains.  When our spouse just doesn't seem to understand what we are trying to say.  When our friends fail to hold us up when our strength is faltering.  These are the realities.  This is true life. 

 No one is absolute but Jesus.  We have to rely only on Him.  Everything else is just fluff.  Not truth.  Not trustworthy.  Not secure.  Only Jesus.  I tell myself this over and over in a weeks time.  Daily I look to Him to be my strength and almost always I fail to believe that He is all I need.   I know that He is constant.  His love is never failing.  Yet I place my hope in people that continue to destroy my hope and cause me to stumble in my faith.  

It is a challenge daily for me to keep my eyes fixed on Him.  I want so much to believe that there is a reason for my journey through this struggle called Christianity.  The end of my journey will be worth the battle.  I do know that to be fact, but the suffering of being disappointed in so much is sometimes just heavy and disheartening.  The Church is to be a reflection of Christ.  I fail to see Christ in so much we attach to His name.  I am disappointed in so much that we as the Body of Christ speak on His behalf.  I do not believe that Jesus would ever judge like we judge and He has the ultimate right to do just that.  He loves instead.  

Jesus never told anyone to come back to Him and serve Him when they were right in their own eyes, or in the eyes of others.  He simply said, "Go and sin no more."  Sounds simple...we are the ones who have chosen to put conditions on forgiveness and moving forward in our walks.


It all comes down to this....Forgiveness is absolute in Christ.  No debt remains.  When will we get true understanding of that fact.  It is finished!